Really need some help… running 5 miles tomorrow need some banging exercise music. Upbeat, bass booming, anything thats popping and makes your body start rocking. I listen to almost anything, so please help me out and send your favorite exercise songs.
I can't wait to get to that point in my life where I can go into a store and know that they'll have something in my size. I can't wait to find an outfit that will make his jaw drop the moment he sees me in it. I can't wait to go into the dressing room and know that not a single tear will be shed as I slip the fabric over my brand new body. I can't wait to buy the outfit with a smile instead of leave the store with a frown. I can't wait, but I have to. And that's the hardest part.
So this week I am on my period and I feel like I wanna eat everything and eat it all night long. I have random cravings and I don’t know how to deal. Are there any suggestions on how to keep up your diet/exercise routine when your moody, bloated, cramping, and upset at the world?
Day Five: Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
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Why do I wanna lose weight? Mostly for my health. Because of my disorder having all this weight has caused a series of other health problems. So I am doing it for my future well being. I am also doing this so that I can be happy with myself.
Apparently to the world I’m fat, useless, unhealthy, anti-social, full of problems and lack drive. I don’t fear weight loss itself. What bothers me is that weight loss won’t hold up its part of the bargain. Weight loss is suppose to make me fit, useful, healthy, sociable, problem less, and motivated…
Day Three: A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?
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I would like to say that I’m not too sure if I like the word thinspo. Maybe fitspo or weightspo. But anyways I saw this picture online yesterday and I thought It was a perfect fitspo for me. The feature I like most about her is that she is curvy. She really has that hourglass figure especially in this picture. I think this is a during picture because she has gotten a lot skinnier than this, but I think she looks perfect the way she is right here.
Sorry ran out of space on the reply. lol I cant drive the commute back and forth and no way am I gonna sit through almost 10 hours of class and force myself to do an hour at the gym. lol How far off are you from graduating? I graduate in December thank god, after I get out I have no idea what I'll do with the extra time!
I will be starting my 3rd year in September. College is hard work so hell yeah once your all done your gonna have some major time on your hands. But then you will have more time to do the things that you love (like your new business-congratulations!!!) It sounds very promising and cute name lol. You should definitely post pictures of your finished products.
Day Two: How tall are you? Do you like your height?
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I am 5’7. I think I like my height. Not too short not too tall. I thought I was average but I think the average height of a female is around 5’5. If I could I would like to be 1-2 inches taller so my fat would be spread out more evenly throughout my body and not just hang on my midsection. But 5’7 is still good, I think It’s especially good for when I want to wear high heels. I can wear 4 inch heels and not look awkward tall. And no matter how tall my heels are I will always be shorter than my 6’3 boyfriend :)
I saw that your a college student, what are you majoring in? College makes weight loss mega hard, were taught taco bell and ramen noodles are staples by which to live! I'm a microbiology major/psychology minor. =)
I’m double majoring in Biology and Food Science and minoring in either (Chemistry or Japanese). My heart tells me to minor in Japanese because I just love it but brain is telling me to do Chemistry because its easier to obtain because of the major I’m in. **sigh** I have NO idea which to choose. And I agree. I live on campus and going to the dinning common is like a “free buffet” for every meal. It can be hard to say no to that piece of cake or the soft serve ice cream machine that you have to walk by just to get to the salad bar. When its time for exams you can forget it. Your up until 3, 4 and 5 a.m. studying and your constantly snacking to keep your brain alive to absorb all the information your trying to shove into it. It gets crazy. I still think it has its ups. At my school there is a free gym open until 11pm, but without motivation I guess that could be useless too -_-
But lets try to stay positive!! We can do this :-)
30 Day Weight Loss Challenge
Day One- Your stats Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height? Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person? Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss. Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you? Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do. Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care? Day Eight- Your workout routine. Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way? Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.” Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why! Day Twelve- What do you normally eat? Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way? Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it? Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian? Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight? Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder? Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness? Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food? Day Twenty- Favorite diet? Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes? Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain? Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight? Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience. Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw? Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food? Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why? Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty. Day Thirty- 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?
So yeahhh I am just amazed that I have reached my first goal in losing 10 lbs in June and June ISN’T even over yet!!!! YAY me… Im not sure if this is just because of my extensive dieting or the exercising or the no birth control but I am definitely dig-ing it.
Can’t wait to find out how much more I lose in the remaining 7 days!!!
I hate when your just browsing facebook and you get this random friend request from one of your closest friends from like elementary school that you haven’t seen in over a decade, and at first your just like “OMG I haven’t heard from you in like forever” then you start looking at their pictures and you realize how gorgeous they look. Then you start wondering what happened to you and why you just let yourself go.
So I go shopping with some people. And I wanted to go to the mall because they have a variety of stores but all my friends wanted to shop on N street (long street full of mostly expensive stores) I knew from that moment that I wasn’t going to buy anything. My friends dragged me into forever21. The clothes were ok, but what I was really wanting to buy was dresses. So I went to look for them and I saw some really cute dresses but as I looked through the rack of clothes I noticed there was a problem… there was no size XL. Because I have bigger hips, butt, and breast I always get XL unless It is a t-shirt or leggings. But these dresses looked so cute so I decided to ask one of the workers if they had XL maybe in the back some where… bad idea. She looked at me like I was crazy and told me “We don’t DO XL” and walked off…. mad rude. I was about to go cuss her out but my friends calmed me down and told me that made the larges run big. I was doubtful but they told me to try it on anyways and asked what did I have to lose. So I went to the fitting room and tried the three dresses on one at a time.
First dress wouldn’t go past my ass… (no biggie it was ugly anyways)
Second dress made my tities look like two flap jacks nailed to a box (FUCK DAT!!)
Third dress… was really cute and navy blue. I felt like I could’ve been on baywatch… as the freaking blue whale jumping out the water in the back…
I hated how I looked… I was literally having a break down in the fitting room in front of the mirror. I felt like shit. Not that hot shit that just came out, but that cold shit thats been sitting there forever. I cried… but fifteen minutes later I came out of the fitting room, smile on my face, telling my other friends how amazing the dresses made them look.
Amongst my friends I have always been the slow one. And I don’t mean stupid. I walk slow. Sometimes I don’t mean to be slow but it just happens. I get very self conscious because I’m bigger and I over think things and I think my friends are saying to themselves “alright lets slow down for fatty… she might not be able to catch up but she’ll be able to catch her breath” And I know they aren’t really saying that but when you get in that self conscious state of mind you just start making all types of shit in your head.
I feel like in college I started becoming more independent and when I started attending college my new friends started asking me questions like”why do you eat so slow” and “why are you walking so slow?” then I would slightly grin and reply “See? thats what’s wrong with young people now a days. Your so fast. So fast to do this so fast to do that. Your gonna miss out on life maybe if you slow down you might learn to appreciate the things around you” and although they would half listen to what I said we all got a good laugh out of it.
So yesterday I went to chill with some of my old friends from back home over one of their houses. We all live in different parts of the city so we all took different methods of transportation. My friend lives about 3 miles away from me so I decided to get in a little exercise and walk to her house. I was by myself and had my ipod on blast just doing my thing. I wasn’t in a rush but I was walking a little hasty so that I can get the full effect of my reebok reetone sneakers (buns and thighs still on fire as I type this!!!) As I was passing a station some woman came up to me and asked how did I get there so fast. She was on the bus when she saw me 5 stops away from the station and the bus and I got there at the same time. Some guy tried to holler at me and he was just like “damn girl slow down… give me some time to take my phone out and get them digits”… but I kept walking. nothing was gonna slow me down
The funny part came later when me and my friends went shopping. They were all amazed at how fast I was walking… I didn’t even notice!! They couldn’t believe it. Some of then joked saying that it must be the shoes but i don’t think so.
So yesterday went very well health/food wise. I am very proud of myself. I even worked out (vigorously I might add) for 45 minutes turbo jam cardio party mix 1 style AND (and thats a big and) I walked 2.1 miles. I mean I feel sore as shit right now in the buns and thighs and my arms feel like they are gonna fall off but hopefully it will be all worth it in the long run.
Some concern… my mother keeps buying juice. And juice is my ultimate weakness. I can go days without eating anything but just drink juice and still end up consuming over 2,000 calories. Thoughts keep fluttering my head every time i open the refrigerator like “come on just half of a half of a half of a half of a half of a cup won’t harm any body ehhh?”
you know what I don’t get? How is it that plus size models have flat stomaches? Like for real… I’ve looked up a lot of plus size models (sizes 12, 14, 16, and 18) and they have a relatively flat stomach. Like no muffin tops, maybe a love handle or two but no front baggage… can some one please let me in on the secret. like for real…
So I was taking “the pill” to control my menstrual cycle but after I got out from college I decided that I was going to stop taking birth control for several reasons 1.) I RAN OUT and I don’t have a doctor at this moment to prescribe me another year’s worth 2.) nothing was happening!!! I had faithfully… well semi faithfully taken these pills for two years and there were no results. I mean YES my cycle was continuous unlike before and YES i am protected from having kids buuuuuuttt what about the other side affects of PCOS? I was going to the gym constantly but I didn’t lose any weight (but if i stopped going i gained) and my hair wasn’t growing that much either (not gonna lie it did a lil bit but not enough after TWO FREAKING YEARS!!) **sigh** anyways lately now that I’m pill-free i feel like my hormones are all over the place. I want to eat random things, i don’t want to exercise, and I want to sleep all day. I feel like I’m on the verge of a break down.
**sigh** Im going to try harder (I literally have no motivation at all at this point but I feel like if I write it then I might do it… who knows) I’m going to do turbo jam for 10 days see what happens… Wish me luck -_-